Still hanging in there

Thank you for the overwhelming support that everyone has given. It's nice to hear all of the uplifting words. I'm pretty much a nervous wreck this week. I have so much going on, including finals. I'm trying to make all of the right decisions and it's driving me up the wall, quite frankly. Yep, that's right, this week I am SO not put together.

Today I'm suppose to be giving some oral presentation in front of my physiology class. I am a freaking wreck. I absolutely HATE (HATE) to give presentations. I can't stand them. I'm sure nobody really ENJOYS them unless that's what you do but I hate the fact that I immediately get red in the face, shaky, clammy, etc. Why IS that? I've tried all of the "tricks" of the trade, you know...imagining the audience naked...etc. Now let me tell you, I don't have any desire to imagine any of those people in my class naked. I think that route would make me even more nervous! Maybe it's the fear of making a complete ass out of myself. I dunno. In any event, I don't want to do it and I know I must. Only another 40 minutes until then. ACK!!

My brain is tired from the mounds and mounds of research I've been doing. I can't sleep at night because I feel that I need to gather as much information as I can to be sure I'm making the right decisions. My life, my health, my marriage, my relationships, they all depend on it. I want to be better...not worse. I want to find relief, not more pain. I just want to be sure, absolutely certain, that I'm making the best decision for my situation.

And...with that said...it's time to go study so that I can pass these finals. Thanks again everyone. I really appreciate all of your support. I'll be in touch!

Until next time...