Mood is heavy...

Tonight has fallen upon me and with it, has covered me with an attitude that I don't care to have. I'll admit it, I'm feeling overly moody tonight. It's now after 9pm and I have only gotten more frustrated with things as the afternoon has gone on. I tried to take a nap earlier in the afternoon but it was met with constant interruptions from my children. Just as I would drift off, the bedroom door would fly open and my silence would be broken with a shrieking "MOM." It's frustrating, absolutely frustrating, when you want nothing more than some piece and quiet and you don't get it.

I'm frustrated that I still can't pick up Jonathon. I tried today and was met by some pretty strong pain. Mistake. Lesson learned.

Finally, around 7:30pm, I was so incredibly frustrated by my inability to have some peace and quiet and being showered by some type of mood bug that I calmly lost it. I informed the Mr. that I was not going to deal with any children for the remainder of the evening. I was taking myself hostage in our room with the computer, the remote, my drink and a few snacks. I made it very clear that I was not coming out unless it was for my own selfish reasons!

Call me selfish today and you may be semi-correct. I won't share all the times this weekend that I was alone to take care of the kids without help from the Mr. So, since he's had his time to do what he's wanted, now it's time for me to do what I want. Of course, if I really was doing what I wanted, I'd be feeling up to par and shopping or doing something more exciting than sitting on my bed watching the Bush Race. You know, like vacationing at some tropical island somewhere, laying in the sun and enjoying those umbrella drinks. Someday...someday I'll be doing that! But for now, it's me, Mt. Dew, and a field of race car drivers on TV. Ah, the life.

What's the Mr. doing, you ask? Well, since he's been handed the parenting stick for the evening, he is outdoors with all five kids and one of his buddies having a bonfire in the woods. (I love bonfires, and we usually have one every Saturday night, but tonight I'm sitting it out!) Yes, it's 9:37pm. Yes, all five kids are still awake. And yes, he has let every one of them have soda at this time of the night (gasp). (Well, the little guy was given a taste of Orange Crush by his oldest brother...grrr)! But...that's not my problem. It is his job tonight to bathe them, feed them, and put them to bed. If he wants to spend the late evening hours with his kids around a bonfire, I applaud him. Maybe it will pay off and they will all sleep in until the 11 o'clock hour tomorrow morning. (Yes, that does happen here!!) So, I hope the Mr. and the gang are having a fantastic time outdoors tonight.

Fatigue has hit me hard this weekend. My mind seems "spacey" for some reason. Pain comes and goes. Swelly Belly is more prominent by the evening. But I'm still here. Today, I haven't taken one pain pill. Not even a Motrin. I may take something this evening though to help ease me into sleep and keep me sleeping through the night.

I hope your weekend has gone well.

Up next time... "Mounders" Out of the mouth of babes (sigh)...

Until next time...