Bottoms Up!!!

Tonight, I have a date. Even though it's not your typical date it will still be quite intimate. As much as I want to share my date with each and every one of you, I must be selfish and keep it all to myself. So, while you're all enjoying some restful sleep, I'm going to be assuming the position. I already know our date is going to end on a crappy note. I will sit..and sit...and sit after my date fufills it's obligation. Perhaps the two of you could have a date in the future too...never say never!

All kidding aside, we are in countdown mode. I am currently about 16 hours until I have to be at the hospital and about 18 until surgery. My nerves aren't too frazzled yet but I am dealing with a monster of a headache. Tim has left for work and the kids are running around like wild monkeys with their cousins. Their bags have been packed and the laundry is 99% finished. The rest will have to wait for Tim because I am out of laundry soap. I have to rewrite the questions I wanted Tim to ask the doctor because Katelyn decided to use it to draw on and write her name twenty times over. I need to finish up the list of phone numbers of those that want to be updated afterwards. And I need to sleep.

Tonight, however, I will settle the kids down into bed about 8pm and curl up with my blanket and a good movie and wait for my friend to show up. We will party and eat light until my midnight deadline. As soon as I'm comfortable or sleeping, she'll sneak out back to her family. I can't thank her enough for being there, especially tonight.

As a matter of fact, I can't thank any of you enough for your support, prayers, phone calls, emails, visits and everything else that you have done. I know if I tried to thank everyone by name, I'd forget someone unintentionally and I don't want to hurt any feelings. So to each of you, every single one of you, Thank You from the bottom of my heart. You've made this a little easier!!

So, tomorrow is the BIG day. I hope it marks the beginning of a (after recovery) pain free journey. I have always just thought pain was a normal issue for a woman. I didn't realize that every single woman wasn't wanting to curl up into a ball for days when her period would arrive. I didn't realize that all women were not cramping the majority of the month. I just assumed that as a woman, pain was natural. I now know that isn't the case. So I only hope that the pain is gone after I heal. I look forward to living and loving life without having to use narcotics to get through the week of my cycle and motrin the remainder of the month. I look forward to swimming anytime I want. Even though I'll have to in the future, I look forward to no longer having to spend my money buying pads that are the size of a barge and tampons that are absorbent enough to suck up Lake Michigan. What a carefree feeling that is. No more pads flopping down on the counter at the grocery store when I go to pull my check book out. No more towels under my keester in order to protect my bed. No more... No more... No more... NO MORE PERIODS!!!

I would be lying if I said I wasn't just a teeny bit nervous about tomorrow. I'm not so nervous about the hyst. But I'm very nervous about the bladder surgery. I just want it to all go good. I don't want to be sent home with a catheter. I want to be able to pee normally!! I look forward to no more leaking when I jump, cough, laugh, sneeze or lift up something. I am hoping that the pain meds will be abundant and on time. I do not want to be laying in bed at 2am in severe pain because my nurses are too consumed with their own thing.

I suppose I should be finishing up dinner and getting the table set. It's like a "last supper" for me. Although, I think I'll pass on Spaghetti. I have no intentions of seeing that a second time. Although, the anesthelogist did assure me that he would have great meds for me to avoid nausea. I sure hope so. He also said he'd have versed ready for me when I arrived at 10:30am to calm any jittery nerves. Can I hear a big AMEN? (smile)