I think we have a problem...

You know, most times I feel like I have it together. Lately, I feel like I couldn't have it together even if someone glued everything in place for me. My mind is absent. My memory is shot. Sleep eludes me. Nothing seems to be in order. Not. At. All.

Since the move, I've noticed myself not being the same. I keep relating it all to stress when in fact, I have no idea if that's the problem or not. I try not to be stressed out. I don't know how that's suppose to happen though considering everything that is going on.

• My hair is falling out.
• My back pain is a dull ache or searing pain and anything in between.
• My sleep pattern is nonexistent unless I take pain meds for my back. Then I sleep. Not a good combination during the daytime.
• My date book is full of things to remember but I can't seem to remember to look at it. This is causing issues.
• My laundry is never ending which tells me we still have way too many clothes. Time to eliminate half of them again.
• My children can't seem to adjust to a schedule this week at all even though we have discussed it often.
• My daughter is turning seven in a few weeks and has severe mood swings already. HUH? PMS at seven? Perhaps...
• My whole world is about to turn around and upside down next week as I begin classes at a new facility. Unfortunately, it's also an hour drive each way.
• Next week, hubby is changing his work schedule around to one that will benefit us all, eventually. However, it tends to be inconvenient until the kids are back to school.
• The kids start class in a few more weeks which given my mood lately, it's a few weeks too many.
• I'll begin the EMT program the same time they start class which has me away from them two to three times a week.
• The boys have football practice four nights a week, which messes up our routines including dinner and bedtimes.
• I find myself forgetting simple things such as tonight when I tried to cook pizza. I couldn't remember how to turn the oven off. And when I went to get the pizza out of the oven, I opened the fridge instead.
• I have a feeling my meds are causing this jittery feeling in my legs, especially. I'll be sitting still and suddenly will jolt for no reason.
• My mind races and keeps me up into the wee hours of the morning. Then I have a difficult time prying myself out of bed.
• My energy is wiped out. Completely!
• I'm finding myself sweating way more than I ever have.
• My chest becomes tight and begins to hurt, which I think is me just being over anxious and stressed about everything. (Even when I try not to be stressed or don't feel stressed)
• There's a place I should be at in a few weeks but financially and schedule-wise it just isn't an option.
• Hubby's vehicle is out of commission and we have no means of getting it taken care of right now. Hopefully soon. Very soon.
• If I had one wish right now that didn't involve being rich, healthy, or such, it would be to spend a few days alone with a good book. I'd love to do nothing but read and sleep for a few days. No interruptions. No responsibilities. Nobody else to cater to or worry about. Just me and only me.
• On second thought, I think spending the evening into the wee hours talking with some of my best friends until we all collapsed with exhaustion sounds appealing too. At least I know I won't have to cut their food up into little tiny pieces. :)
• Right now, I wish I had a maid and a nanny. Instead, I'll settle with crawling into my bed and snuggling with those that mean the world to me.
• Tomorrow, I'll put the Maid and Nanny hat on and get busy.

Sleep well everyone.