I'm gonna WIN

As promised, I said I would share with you what is rattling around inside my head. So here I am, at 4:30 in the morning, unable to sleep.

Lately, I've had several people ask me if I was a nurse yet or if I was working. I can't tell you how much that stings. I know people aren't being hurtful by asking. It bothers me though because I don't believe these people understand the difficulty of getting accepted into the Nursing Programs. Applications are accepted one time a year with approximately 80 open spots. They are highly competitive. The one I have applied to (twice now) is very difficult to get into, especially if you are not working in the medical field with direct patient care in addition to getting a 4.0 in every class. I did quite well with my grades, having 3.5-4.0's for the majority of them. However, my work experience is not "direct patient care" and therefore, does not count. Having said all this, I guess I just wish I didn't have to explain myself to everyone that asks "how much longer". Even though they are curious, it makes me feel like a failure in a sense. It's one of those things that you want it so bad that you can nearly feel it, yet it's still so far away. Anyways, it is what it is...

This month is when I will find out my fate with one particular college regarding my Nursing application. I don't anticipate being accepted to their program, yet again. If I've done all my calculations correctly, I will have missed the cut off by a hair. One part of the point calculations consist of a few select classes and the overall GPA you earned in those particular classes. I had a 3.23 and needed a 3.25 in order to get the five additional points. Those points would have given me a spot in the program for sure. So, for now, I sit and wait, praying that a miracle will happen and that I will be accepted.

So, while pondering these thoughts in my head for the past few months, I decided to check out another program at a different college. I had my transcript sent and evualated. Before it was complete, I met with an advisor who briefly went over my transfer classes to give me an idea of what I would need to take in order to get into their program. I left the meeting discouraged as I was going to need to retake some classes. Fast forward to about a month later. I received the letter from this college with the transfer equivalencies. I glanced over it briefly. I let more time pass as I tried to figure out what I was going to do about the summer and fall semesters this year.

Today, I decided to dig into the packet of paperwork I had and mark down what transferred and what I had left to do. As I was doing this, I realized that those classes I was told I'd need to retake actually transferred over! I don't have to retake those classes! As I continued, I found that there is one class that I can take to help me get 5 more points for this colleges program. Other than that, there is only one more mandatory class that I'll have to complete in addition to actual nursing classes. In short, I can apply to this program NOW (the deadline is Oct 1st-starting the program in January). So, that is what I plan to do. I will need to take the NET exam (Nursing Entrance Testing) that is required.

I can't tell you how pumped up I was when I realized that my classes transferred over! What a relief. Perhaps it's closer than I thought. I can not wait!

Anyways, I had to share my news. A few weeks ago, I put an old CD in and listened as these words were sang. It speaks what is on my heart.

Win
by Brian McKnight
Dark is the night, I can weather the storm.
Never say die, I've been down this road before.
I'll never quit, I'll never lay down.
See, I've promised myself that I'd never let me down, so, I'll never give up, never give in.
Never let a ray of doubt slip in.
And if I fall, I'll never faint,
I'll just get up and try again.
Never lose hope, never lose faith,
There's much too much at stake,
Upon myself I must depend.
I'm not looking for plays to show, I'm gonna win.
No stopping now, there's still a ways to go.
Ohh, someway, somehow.
Whatever it takes, I know,
I'll never quit, no, no.
I'll never go down.
I'll make sure they remember my name.
A hundred years from now. I'll never give up, never give in.
Never let a ray of doubt slip in.
And if I fall, I'll never faint,
I'll just get up and try again.
Never lose hope, never lose faith,
There's much too much at stake,
Upon myself I must depend.
I'm not looking for plays to show, I'm gonna win. When it's all said and done,
My once in a lifetime won back again.
Now is the time, to take a stand.
Here is my chance, that's why, I'll never give up, never give in.
Never let a ray of doubt slip in.
And if I fall, I'll never faint,
I'll just get up and try again.
Never lose hope, never lose faith,
There's much too much at stake,
Upon myself I must depend.
I'm not looking for plays to show, I'm gonna win. I'm gonna win.