Knocked to our knees

Tonight, as I pray, You already know what lies on my heart. You already know the outcome of this situation. You already have a plan in place. You have known all along how difficult this road would become and yet You still chose us to be this childs parents. You have trusted us to raise and nuture them to the best of our ability. We need a little more help, Lord. We need Your guidance, Your direction, Your wisdom. Help us to chose the right path.

As parents, we expected that things would be difficult. We understood that there would be times that we would have to do things that would disappoint our children. So why is it that when that time comes, we agonize over it until the pain we feel emotionally becomes a true physical pain. A pain so deep within our chest that we feel like we are suffocating.

I'm not referring to something as "trivial" as a grounding or confiscating a favorite toy. I'm talking about something life changing. A true tough love situation. Something that you know deep within your heart could change your child. Something that has the potential to change them for the better or possibily for the worse. What do you do when your hands are tied.

This is what we are facing. I can't even begin to tell you how much my heart hurts right now. Real, physical pain. Raw, deep emotions. Knowing that it is our choice to make but unsure what choice is really for the best.

I can only hope that He gives us some guidance in making the right decision.